I hope you all have a

Happy Thanksgiving!

I'd write what I was thankful for, but it would take awhile and basically I'm thankful for everything. Verdana font, my blog, my family (of course), my house, etc etc. So instead of listing all that stuff, which you could guess anyway, I'm going to tell you about my day thus far and how it will (probably) progress.

I woke this morning at 4am because my back was horribly stiff. Apparently I fell asleep while watching tv from my bed. My head was at the spot where my feet usually are, and I was propped up on my comforter and my blanket. I still had all of my clothes on (all of which explains the stiff/icky feeling I had that woke me). So I put on my nightie, get ready for bed, and go back to sleep- this time with my head at the correct side of the bed. I woke a few dozen times during the morning, but I always fell right back asleep with little disturbance done. I finally woke up around 10. That means I slept at least 14 hours. hehe. That was great. Very refreshing to finally sleep. Apparently I needed it.

And this morning so far I've left some offlines to the person who IMd me while I was asleep last night, read some blogs, tried to figure out what sort of sci-fi movie my brother is watching (at least I'm assuming it's sci fi, it's on the sci fi network), ate some pumpkin roll for breakfast (yummm), drank a glass of water, and listened to my parents bickering. Apparently dad scheduled a clean out for 8am tomorrow, and then they're going to an auction after that so mom is stressing over when she is going to sleep because, as she says, she "gets her best sleep in the morning". But they stopped bickering now, and I think mom's resigned to one more day without her best sleep. I've been listening to Hoover speak to her computer (more specifically MS Word's Speak capability), about Dorothy and Wizard of Oz, which has driven me crazy. And now I'm listening to the sci-fi channel's commercials and the radio that my mom has on in the kitchen, simutaniously (spell checker wanted to change that word to smuttiness...ummm no). It's a rather noisy household this morning. I can smell the turkey baking, and everytime I think of how mom didn't buy potatoes so we're not getting homemade mashed potatoes I think of how non-traditional of a thanksgiving this is. We're having instant mashed potatoes. Now don't get me wrong, I love mashed poatatoes regardless, but I want homemade. *sniff sniff*

But all in all, so far it's been a good thanksgiving, and much like every other day except for the turkeys (we're having 2 I think) and the massive lunch we are going to have later that will put back on those 10lbs I lost. grr. it'll be worth it though ;)

Happy thanksgiving everyone!

I now have a checking account! yay! lol. I don't know why I'd need one, I don't plan to write checks but it was a better deal then my savings account would have been since I'm no longer a minor. Savings you have to have a min. balance of $50 or get charged fees, and the checking account is totally free (no monthly fee, no min. balance, etc). So I got a checking account, had to buy the $15 checks but other than that it's free :) And it lets me cash my paycheck each week since I have an account there. yay. Soooo... now when I get money, I can put it in. lol.

AND I'm getting a credit card. I know I know they can be bad news but I have to get one or I can't afford anything on my (soon to be) $90 a week paycheck. So if I get one and only pay a bit above the minimum... which is bad I know but I've no choice considering my brakes need to be done and for them to get done in a shop it'd cost $600. But my dad is buying the stuff tomorrow and putting them on himself to save me/them some cash $$. So I'm getting a credit card, and I have a checking account.... I feel 'adult'. lol.

The other day, I (myself) had over 400 customers in 8 hours. It was a special discount day for our store. All the registers were open and there was a line of 8 people in each register (12 registers) sometimes. Sheesh was I busy. But it was fun, sorta. But I think I'm the only person in the store that thought so. lol.

Well that's my 10 minute (which actually took longer because I'm IMing too) update. New winter (brr! I perish at the thought!) template up soon.

In my Psychology class I had to take a mini-survey to see whether or not I'm "internet dependant". Guess what? I am. lol. It was a 10 question quiz, and if you answer yes or sometimes to 4 or more questions you're internet dependant. I'd list the Qs but I can't think of them now sorry. But anyway, I'm internet dependant. And then it goes on to list the problems of being internet dependant. And they say that you don't really have people that care about you on the internet. Even if you talk to someone every day and become what you would call a friend, that person doesn't really care about you. What kind of stupid class is this? Are they trying to make me sad? And apparently I don't really miss anyone that hasn't been on the computer for days, at least not like I'd miss a "real friend". I just think I miss them because I think they're friends, but they're not. What a bunch of bull-oney. If you're not on for a few days (or hours depending) chances are I miss talking to you (granted, some people i miss more than others. but the point is, I do care about all my friends- net or 'real'). I'm not liking this class when it tells me how I feel. Sometimes this class is ok, but once they start telling me my feelings are wrong and just how I think I feel but I don't actually feel that way... grr. Yea, I may not know them in 'real' life, but what I know of them I like, so.. is that so wrong to consider people friends?

ya know, I spent the whole day at work thinking about how I should have blogged before I went to work. oy. and i blame may. and her mom. lol kidding. Well, it is your fault in a way but i'm not blaming anyone cause it's not like you did something wrong. lol.. oy i'm starting over.

May (and may's mom lol) I probably shouldn't have said I need medication. Although sometimes I really do think it would help me. Not all medication is bad for a person (I'm talking anti-depressants not cold pills lol), it just depends on the person and what they're taking. Sometimes it's an imbalance of brain chemicals, when the person actually needs medication to even up the brain chemicals so they're not going really really high up, and really really low down for no reason. Take my dad (please! lol) for example... he has ADD and he's bi-polar (depressed during certain times of year). He used to be on medication for it, until it had some unwanted..errr..sexual side effects and said no freakin way is he taking it anymore lol. But it did help him so that he wasn't looking to jump into the path of a bus all the time, or drinking like crazy, or retreating into himself sooo much that I felt like I didn't have a dad.... it helped him be my normal dad again. The guy I love. It's not that the medication changed who he was/is, it just helps him not be such a mess of a person.

And you're right, it is perfectly normal to have ups and downs, i'm not denying that at all. and i shouldn't have said i need medication, because i don't really need it, so i'm sorry for joking about it. But my point is (however muddled it sounds up there, it's late and i'm tired lol) medication isn't all bad. For some people, it's needed if only for a little bit of time, and only certain ones. It's not something to be taken lightly (as in... those teens that take it because it's 'fun' to take 'chill pills').

So yea, that's what I was thinking about during work, lol. That'll teach me to NOT read my comments right before I have to leave for work. lol

so my titles are obsolete, because I didn't put them in this template's coding. I forgot. oops. lol.

I'm feeling much better for some strange reason. I"m not quite sure why. Maybe because I'm mainly caught up on schoolwork? Or because I kind of like having to be a cashier? it's fun to be a cashier, you get to talk to tons of weird people. lol.

I had a blog, i had a blog, i had it, and then i lost it. darnit.

well for those of you interested, my nanowrimo novel is going horribly. lol. I'm not even at the 2k mark. blah. I'm only like 28,000 words behind, right? ;)

Yep, things are looking up. Although nothing's really changed. oy. I think I need medication to balance out my moods. lol. seriously, I go really way up happy, and really far down sad. Although I've only gotten really really almost suicidal like 3 times in past... 2 years? So that's good. Whenever I get like that I pour my heart and tears (literally) into a letter, put it in an envelope, seal the envelope, and then on the front of it write the date and a subject of what it's about. And then I stick in my dresser drawer, and never open it. I'm not quite sure why I do that. I was thinking one day I'd give them to the people (ok, person) they're about, but what purpose would that serve? It'd just make things worse, and probably end up in disaster. Maybe I should burn all the papers. Ohhhh in a ceremony! Anyone want to come to a letter burning ceremony at my house?

...yep, still alive. not kicking, but alive at least...

:)

So... yep. Alive, not kicking, but alive. :p

I'm going to change this template, asap. I have one I guess I'll use, I just have to edit the links etc and put it on. So it'll be up tonight I think.

I had off the past 2 days. yay! Well, actually it was yesterday and today. And then I work from 5pm-10 tomorrow. Same schedule until Saturday, in which I work 4pm-10pm instead. And then thanksgiving week I work every single day except thanksgiving :( But I'm doing better. I'm a cashier now, which is much better than the shoe department. It goes faster, and you get to see/meet a bunch of cool (and some weird) people. It's a bit complicated doing price checks and remembering all the stuff, but other than that it's ok. And I wear my boots now instead of my shoes, because the one night I took off my shoes and my shoes (at the arch) had actually rubbed my foot raw! It hurt :'( So now I wear my boots and it's all better :) And I got my schedule ironed out, so I'll now have around only 25 hours, as opposed to the 34 I had this past week. So maybe I won't flunk out of school... maybe.

For this quarter, I got the worst report card of my entire school career!
Anthropology= A
Career Planning= B
Chemistry= B
Geometry= C (yikes!!!)
Psychology= exempt because I couldn't access work
World Literature= A

2 'A's, 2 'B's, and a C!!!! It would figure that when grades actually count, the year that colleges and scholarships really look at, I'd get the worst report card I've ever had. Someone, or everyone, please cross your fingers for luck that I'll do at least 1,000 on my SATs (which seems difficult right now) or I'm... well, my life is in the dumpster.

And there's a bunch of family issues, which I'd rather not discuss on here (some of you already know them, IM me maybe I'll tell you if you don't know already), and well.... yea. I don't want to say those issues on here because of 1) privacy- the internet is a very freaky place where I'd have a bunch of weirdos emailing me if I told 2) it's personal, involving my family, and it's kinda a major issue 3) I wouldn't want you to think less of me because of the mistakes of my dad.

And that about ends my blog, I'm going to try to update more but I can't make promises because of my work and school schedule. But thanks bunches and bunches for all the well wishes and expressions of sympathy, they definetly brightened some bleak moments I've had this week. :)

...work...

i'm dead. exahusted. i started work today. I was there from orientation at 1:30, then i started work immediatly afterwards and got off of it at 10pm. ZzZzZ. I'm dead on my feet. my poor sore feet. I'm working in the shoes department, ironically. How can someone that work in shoes have sore feet? oy. Tomorrow I work from 8am til 6pm. And then tomorrow I have to get the rest of my schedule ironed out. zzzzzz. It's not hard work, kinda interesting, always busy, but the time goes slow. At least it did today. Did I mention I'm tired?
But when will you fit in school? you may ask. Answer: I've no freakin clue! I'm working 30 hours this week if they don't change my schedule around. zzzz.
My highlight of the evening was I got to see little heather :) My cutie. :) i missed her so much, and I was hoping I"d get to see her tomorrow but now with my work schedule I can't. Darnit. I'm going to bed, goodnight.

...template...

yup, i'll get a new template up asap may. hehe. i know it's after halloween. so soon.

...psst! (second edition)...

I got a job today. Well, at least I think I did since orientation for it is Monday. At a department store in my town. A yucky $5.40 an hour, but it's better than what I'm making now ($0) :) And my car insurance is like $300 a month so... this will help. I won't have any money left over, but I don't want to stick mom with the whole $300 bill. And besides, this job is only seasonal (christmas) work anyway. At least that's what they told me. I'm hoping they change their minds and keep me on. never know.

that's your minute update. I'm drowning in schoolwork, driving, and soon to be drowning in my job too. not to mention normal day to day life, and add some family misfunctions/problems to that mix. ugh.

...psst!!...

i got my driver's license today. first time taking the test too (no, i'm not bragging, i'm just amazed cause i really thought i would take at least 2 tries). :)

...sorry jade!...

duh to me! Sorry jade! I forgot to actually change the link. oy. Sorry. Here, to make up for it I'll link you a bunch Jade
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There ya go!

...1,900+ words in and still thinking...

Yay! Apparently I should only write at night. This morning I stopped at 400 words because I ran out of ideas. Ran out at 400 words! That's pathetic, nearly impossible to write a novel when you run into writers block 400 words in. But then tonight... I don't know what it was, but I kept thinking and typing, and typing and typing. 1,500 words later I look at my word count and I'm over 1,900 words. Yay! I'm not going to write too much about my novel here, because, well, it'll probably bore you. But periodically I'll be updating my novel on my nanowrimo blog, so if you want to check it out it's http://mynanowrimoattempt.blogspot.com. It's not very good there yet, no dialog and it's at the 400ish word stopping point I was at this morning, but... there it is. And now my brain is overloaded with vampire/teen romance ideas. sigh.

oh, p.s.- Jade, I just noticed your link is messed up! Sorry! I just fixed it, apparently I put .net instead of .com Duh to me! Anyway, it's fixed now so all you wonderful people (that aren't commenting) can go to Jade's blog (after you commented on mine, I mean. not right at this second, comment first. lol)