woohoo guess this proves i'm not a complete idiot!

my SAT results are in (online). Guess what? You know how I said I'll never get over 1,000? well, i'm happy to report I was (for once in my life, hehe) wrong. not too far off, 1090 i think i got, but still i was happy to get over 1,000. because i really really really didn't think i was even going to get 1,000.

so guess what i did? i sprained my foot. lovely, eh? i think it's sprained anyway. I went to the doctor for it, she gave me pain medicine (a bit stronger than tylenol) and told me to keep an ace bandage on it. I even called off of work today, it hurt that much to stand. grrr. work tomorrow though, 5-10pm. wish me luck on getting through it.

i'm sitting here, wishing for someone to talk to. an elusive somebody. even i don't know who they are. i want someone real, not online. the only problem is, any chance i had for any real interaction with people outside of my family, i turned down yesterday. at work last night i was asked my phone number by one (very old) guy, and another guy (closer to my age) asked me if i had a boyfriend and when i said no without looking at him he said 'and you're not interested either are you..?' and no, i wasn't, although i told him it was because i have no time for guys right now. which is true, in a way, i am a very busy person as of late, but i think if there were any sort of spark i'd make the time. i just haven't felt that yet... and no matter what i say to people, i think i want to. i'd like to feel cherished. i just haven't found the right guy yet. and sometimes i don't want to find him... and then sometimes i'd love to have someone be there for me, to laugh with me, to make each other happy, to make me cry (love isn't always happy), to lust after me (horrible sounding i know, but there's nothing that makes one feel better than knowing someone wants you, that you're beautiful/amazing etc), to hug me, to cuddle with me, to kiss me, to remind me i'm not alone, ... i don't always feel like i matter. i mean of course i matter to my family and a few online friends, but other than that? it'd be nice to know that if/when i die i had some sort of spot in someone's heart, even if it was just a casual 'relationship'... it'd be nice to know that for even just a moment in time, i mattered to someone.

this post was inspired by turning down the guy yesterday, the nice guy- not the old one who just wanted my phone number (50 at least he had a daughter older than me that yelled at him when he asked and kept going on about how i wouldn't give him my phone number to his 5year old grandchildren). it was also inspired by my feelings lately, reflections and stuff. and the 3 romance books i got today, one of which i've read completely this afternoon, and the dove bodywash/shampoo/deodorant i used in/after my bath. my grandma got it for me for christmas, and i must just say i smell delicious. and so yea, all of that stuff combined made me blog this. it took an hour to blog this, partly because i haven't yet sorted my thoughts out yet, and partly due to the fact that i had to have another website up to read because my mom was at her desk behind me and kept turning to see what i was reading/typing and i don't really want her, or maybe even anyone especially family, to read this.

i don't know if any of this made sense, to anyone, or myself. but i'm bored/restless and lonely.

images from kidsdomain.com

this template has been up entirely too long. it's been an eternity since i changed templates. gah. i guess i ought to leave it up till at least after christmass is over, right? oy.

i just think my yahoo profile pic is hilarious. I got them at my father's work today, so I thought i might as well model them. lol

hahahahahahahahahahaha *falls off chair and says from the floor* hahahahahahaha

Picture this:

Someone knows you're in a down mood. They want to cheer you up. The problem is, they're the reason you're in the mood, only they don't know it. How can you tell them?

I'm mad at someone. maybe not mad, but disappointed? tired of dealing with their stuff? I don't know the right words to express. But I'm just sick of it. 'it' being dealing with the person. so now what? do i stop talking to them? but i am (usually) happy when talking to them. just... not always. and it's those other times that make me want to not talk to them. but then i remember the 'good' times, the times i smile and laugh until i cry, and then i think well maybe... maybe, as long as the good times keep outnumbering the bad, i'll keep talking to them. and they do. good outnumber the bad i mean. but it's just... i don't know. and the person doesn't know i feel this way, and i'm not sure i can tell them. but now what? grrr. i hate feeling like this!

i'm debating on whether or not to post this. because there is a slight slight chance they'll see this and figure it out. although, chances are, if you're reading this, it's not you. the person that i'm talking about, I never gave my blog URL. So if you ever got a link to this blog from me, it's not you. so don't worry.

i'm on antidepressants...

and stomach ulcer medicine...




both. at the same time. for my hives, not for depression or stomach ulcers. i have neither, thank goodness. But I do have hives. and let me just tell you, they itch like crazy! they're not as bad as last summer (see Apr 14, 10:41pm entry) though, i had them so much then that I had to go to the emergency room. for this i'm just taking the same medicine i took last time, actually the exact same (leftover) prescription. and it seems to be helping, i'm not near as itchy as i was pre-medicine :)

here you go, new Christmas design, featuring my puppy (ok, so she's like 3 years now :p) Gidget.
As it says on the sidebar, I didn't do the html. I only changed the colors (which are a bit unmatched with the pic) and took out the overflow-auto tag.
And put in the pic of Gidget of course. Aww. isn't my puppy cute? lol.

i'm blaming all of my crazy moods on my cold medication.

that, and the snow. yea. i am totally not to blame for anything i say.

i dislike the lowercase letter 'q'. it looks ugly. and backwards. and the capital 'Q' isn't all that great either, the 'O' wanna-be.

I'm sick. And that's a fact I've been trying to deny or at least delay for at least a week now. But tonight my sore throat arrived along with my stuffy nose and cough. so i guess it's official :(

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. which i'm kinda thinking it's mean to go to if i'm sick. i mean, what if the poor dentist gets my cold? then he'll be leaning over someone (hopefully not me) and start sneezing into their mouth. eeeww. that's a gross thought, sorry.

I still didn't get my credit card. I was going to apply online, for a visa, but mom says that I should wait for the credit company to come to me (as in send me mail) because then I'll probably get better deals. But I hate waiting. i'm so impatient lately. impatient and lazy at the same time. it's a weird combination.

oh, and as soon as my mom gets the christmas stuff out, I will be changing this template. I'm going to take a pic of my dog Gidget with a santa hat on and use that as part of the template :) it'll be cute, if i can get her to keep the hat on long enough to take the pic lol.

and now i have to go to bed because it's already 11:30 and i have a 9am dentist appt. which means i have to wake up at like 7.... *yawn*

I promise i'll blog better soon.

I hope you all have a

Happy Thanksgiving!

I'd write what I was thankful for, but it would take awhile and basically I'm thankful for everything. Verdana font, my blog, my family (of course), my house, etc etc. So instead of listing all that stuff, which you could guess anyway, I'm going to tell you about my day thus far and how it will (probably) progress.

I woke this morning at 4am because my back was horribly stiff. Apparently I fell asleep while watching tv from my bed. My head was at the spot where my feet usually are, and I was propped up on my comforter and my blanket. I still had all of my clothes on (all of which explains the stiff/icky feeling I had that woke me). So I put on my nightie, get ready for bed, and go back to sleep- this time with my head at the correct side of the bed. I woke a few dozen times during the morning, but I always fell right back asleep with little disturbance done. I finally woke up around 10. That means I slept at least 14 hours. hehe. That was great. Very refreshing to finally sleep. Apparently I needed it.

And this morning so far I've left some offlines to the person who IMd me while I was asleep last night, read some blogs, tried to figure out what sort of sci-fi movie my brother is watching (at least I'm assuming it's sci fi, it's on the sci fi network), ate some pumpkin roll for breakfast (yummm), drank a glass of water, and listened to my parents bickering. Apparently dad scheduled a clean out for 8am tomorrow, and then they're going to an auction after that so mom is stressing over when she is going to sleep because, as she says, she "gets her best sleep in the morning". But they stopped bickering now, and I think mom's resigned to one more day without her best sleep. I've been listening to Hoover speak to her computer (more specifically MS Word's Speak capability), about Dorothy and Wizard of Oz, which has driven me crazy. And now I'm listening to the sci-fi channel's commercials and the radio that my mom has on in the kitchen, simutaniously (spell checker wanted to change that word to smuttiness...ummm no). It's a rather noisy household this morning. I can smell the turkey baking, and everytime I think of how mom didn't buy potatoes so we're not getting homemade mashed potatoes I think of how non-traditional of a thanksgiving this is. We're having instant mashed potatoes. Now don't get me wrong, I love mashed poatatoes regardless, but I want homemade. *sniff sniff*

But all in all, so far it's been a good thanksgiving, and much like every other day except for the turkeys (we're having 2 I think) and the massive lunch we are going to have later that will put back on those 10lbs I lost. grr. it'll be worth it though ;)

Happy thanksgiving everyone!

I now have a checking account! yay! lol. I don't know why I'd need one, I don't plan to write checks but it was a better deal then my savings account would have been since I'm no longer a minor. Savings you have to have a min. balance of $50 or get charged fees, and the checking account is totally free (no monthly fee, no min. balance, etc). So I got a checking account, had to buy the $15 checks but other than that it's free :) And it lets me cash my paycheck each week since I have an account there. yay. Soooo... now when I get money, I can put it in. lol.

AND I'm getting a credit card. I know I know they can be bad news but I have to get one or I can't afford anything on my (soon to be) $90 a week paycheck. So if I get one and only pay a bit above the minimum... which is bad I know but I've no choice considering my brakes need to be done and for them to get done in a shop it'd cost $600. But my dad is buying the stuff tomorrow and putting them on himself to save me/them some cash $$. So I'm getting a credit card, and I have a checking account.... I feel 'adult'. lol.

The other day, I (myself) had over 400 customers in 8 hours. It was a special discount day for our store. All the registers were open and there was a line of 8 people in each register (12 registers) sometimes. Sheesh was I busy. But it was fun, sorta. But I think I'm the only person in the store that thought so. lol.

Well that's my 10 minute (which actually took longer because I'm IMing too) update. New winter (brr! I perish at the thought!) template up soon.

In my Psychology class I had to take a mini-survey to see whether or not I'm "internet dependant". Guess what? I am. lol. It was a 10 question quiz, and if you answer yes or sometimes to 4 or more questions you're internet dependant. I'd list the Qs but I can't think of them now sorry. But anyway, I'm internet dependant. And then it goes on to list the problems of being internet dependant. And they say that you don't really have people that care about you on the internet. Even if you talk to someone every day and become what you would call a friend, that person doesn't really care about you. What kind of stupid class is this? Are they trying to make me sad? And apparently I don't really miss anyone that hasn't been on the computer for days, at least not like I'd miss a "real friend". I just think I miss them because I think they're friends, but they're not. What a bunch of bull-oney. If you're not on for a few days (or hours depending) chances are I miss talking to you (granted, some people i miss more than others. but the point is, I do care about all my friends- net or 'real'). I'm not liking this class when it tells me how I feel. Sometimes this class is ok, but once they start telling me my feelings are wrong and just how I think I feel but I don't actually feel that way... grr. Yea, I may not know them in 'real' life, but what I know of them I like, so.. is that so wrong to consider people friends?

ya know, I spent the whole day at work thinking about how I should have blogged before I went to work. oy. and i blame may. and her mom. lol kidding. Well, it is your fault in a way but i'm not blaming anyone cause it's not like you did something wrong. lol.. oy i'm starting over.

May (and may's mom lol) I probably shouldn't have said I need medication. Although sometimes I really do think it would help me. Not all medication is bad for a person (I'm talking anti-depressants not cold pills lol), it just depends on the person and what they're taking. Sometimes it's an imbalance of brain chemicals, when the person actually needs medication to even up the brain chemicals so they're not going really really high up, and really really low down for no reason. Take my dad (please! lol) for example... he has ADD and he's bi-polar (depressed during certain times of year). He used to be on medication for it, until it had some unwanted..errr..sexual side effects and said no freakin way is he taking it anymore lol. But it did help him so that he wasn't looking to jump into the path of a bus all the time, or drinking like crazy, or retreating into himself sooo much that I felt like I didn't have a dad.... it helped him be my normal dad again. The guy I love. It's not that the medication changed who he was/is, it just helps him not be such a mess of a person.

And you're right, it is perfectly normal to have ups and downs, i'm not denying that at all. and i shouldn't have said i need medication, because i don't really need it, so i'm sorry for joking about it. But my point is (however muddled it sounds up there, it's late and i'm tired lol) medication isn't all bad. For some people, it's needed if only for a little bit of time, and only certain ones. It's not something to be taken lightly (as in... those teens that take it because it's 'fun' to take 'chill pills').

So yea, that's what I was thinking about during work, lol. That'll teach me to NOT read my comments right before I have to leave for work. lol

so my titles are obsolete, because I didn't put them in this template's coding. I forgot. oops. lol.

I'm feeling much better for some strange reason. I"m not quite sure why. Maybe because I'm mainly caught up on schoolwork? Or because I kind of like having to be a cashier? it's fun to be a cashier, you get to talk to tons of weird people. lol.

I had a blog, i had a blog, i had it, and then i lost it. darnit.

well for those of you interested, my nanowrimo novel is going horribly. lol. I'm not even at the 2k mark. blah. I'm only like 28,000 words behind, right? ;)

Yep, things are looking up. Although nothing's really changed. oy. I think I need medication to balance out my moods. lol. seriously, I go really way up happy, and really far down sad. Although I've only gotten really really almost suicidal like 3 times in past... 2 years? So that's good. Whenever I get like that I pour my heart and tears (literally) into a letter, put it in an envelope, seal the envelope, and then on the front of it write the date and a subject of what it's about. And then I stick in my dresser drawer, and never open it. I'm not quite sure why I do that. I was thinking one day I'd give them to the people (ok, person) they're about, but what purpose would that serve? It'd just make things worse, and probably end up in disaster. Maybe I should burn all the papers. Ohhhh in a ceremony! Anyone want to come to a letter burning ceremony at my house?

...yep, still alive. not kicking, but alive at least...

:)

So... yep. Alive, not kicking, but alive. :p

I'm going to change this template, asap. I have one I guess I'll use, I just have to edit the links etc and put it on. So it'll be up tonight I think.

I had off the past 2 days. yay! Well, actually it was yesterday and today. And then I work from 5pm-10 tomorrow. Same schedule until Saturday, in which I work 4pm-10pm instead. And then thanksgiving week I work every single day except thanksgiving :( But I'm doing better. I'm a cashier now, which is much better than the shoe department. It goes faster, and you get to see/meet a bunch of cool (and some weird) people. It's a bit complicated doing price checks and remembering all the stuff, but other than that it's ok. And I wear my boots now instead of my shoes, because the one night I took off my shoes and my shoes (at the arch) had actually rubbed my foot raw! It hurt :'( So now I wear my boots and it's all better :) And I got my schedule ironed out, so I'll now have around only 25 hours, as opposed to the 34 I had this past week. So maybe I won't flunk out of school... maybe.

For this quarter, I got the worst report card of my entire school career!
Anthropology= A
Career Planning= B
Chemistry= B
Geometry= C (yikes!!!)
Psychology= exempt because I couldn't access work
World Literature= A

2 'A's, 2 'B's, and a C!!!! It would figure that when grades actually count, the year that colleges and scholarships really look at, I'd get the worst report card I've ever had. Someone, or everyone, please cross your fingers for luck that I'll do at least 1,000 on my SATs (which seems difficult right now) or I'm... well, my life is in the dumpster.

And there's a bunch of family issues, which I'd rather not discuss on here (some of you already know them, IM me maybe I'll tell you if you don't know already), and well.... yea. I don't want to say those issues on here because of 1) privacy- the internet is a very freaky place where I'd have a bunch of weirdos emailing me if I told 2) it's personal, involving my family, and it's kinda a major issue 3) I wouldn't want you to think less of me because of the mistakes of my dad.

And that about ends my blog, I'm going to try to update more but I can't make promises because of my work and school schedule. But thanks bunches and bunches for all the well wishes and expressions of sympathy, they definetly brightened some bleak moments I've had this week. :)

...work...

i'm dead. exahusted. i started work today. I was there from orientation at 1:30, then i started work immediatly afterwards and got off of it at 10pm. ZzZzZ. I'm dead on my feet. my poor sore feet. I'm working in the shoes department, ironically. How can someone that work in shoes have sore feet? oy. Tomorrow I work from 8am til 6pm. And then tomorrow I have to get the rest of my schedule ironed out. zzzzzz. It's not hard work, kinda interesting, always busy, but the time goes slow. At least it did today. Did I mention I'm tired?
But when will you fit in school? you may ask. Answer: I've no freakin clue! I'm working 30 hours this week if they don't change my schedule around. zzzz.
My highlight of the evening was I got to see little heather :) My cutie. :) i missed her so much, and I was hoping I"d get to see her tomorrow but now with my work schedule I can't. Darnit. I'm going to bed, goodnight.

...template...

yup, i'll get a new template up asap may. hehe. i know it's after halloween. so soon.

...psst! (second edition)...

I got a job today. Well, at least I think I did since orientation for it is Monday. At a department store in my town. A yucky $5.40 an hour, but it's better than what I'm making now ($0) :) And my car insurance is like $300 a month so... this will help. I won't have any money left over, but I don't want to stick mom with the whole $300 bill. And besides, this job is only seasonal (christmas) work anyway. At least that's what they told me. I'm hoping they change their minds and keep me on. never know.

that's your minute update. I'm drowning in schoolwork, driving, and soon to be drowning in my job too. not to mention normal day to day life, and add some family misfunctions/problems to that mix. ugh.

...psst!!...

i got my driver's license today. first time taking the test too (no, i'm not bragging, i'm just amazed cause i really thought i would take at least 2 tries). :)

...sorry jade!...

duh to me! Sorry jade! I forgot to actually change the link. oy. Sorry. Here, to make up for it I'll link you a bunch Jade
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There ya go!

...1,900+ words in and still thinking...

Yay! Apparently I should only write at night. This morning I stopped at 400 words because I ran out of ideas. Ran out at 400 words! That's pathetic, nearly impossible to write a novel when you run into writers block 400 words in. But then tonight... I don't know what it was, but I kept thinking and typing, and typing and typing. 1,500 words later I look at my word count and I'm over 1,900 words. Yay! I'm not going to write too much about my novel here, because, well, it'll probably bore you. But periodically I'll be updating my novel on my nanowrimo blog, so if you want to check it out it's http://mynanowrimoattempt.blogspot.com. It's not very good there yet, no dialog and it's at the 400ish word stopping point I was at this morning, but... there it is. And now my brain is overloaded with vampire/teen romance ideas. sigh.

oh, p.s.- Jade, I just noticed your link is messed up! Sorry! I just fixed it, apparently I put .net instead of .com Duh to me! Anyway, it's fixed now so all you wonderful people (that aren't commenting) can go to Jade's blog (after you commented on mine, I mean. not right at this second, comment first. lol)

... i wish ...

i wish that wishes came true

i wish that bubblegum pop groups never existed

i wish that i had the body to go with my daisy duke outfit

i wish that i wasn't so worried about my schoolwork

i wish that i wasn't on the verge of getting a B or C average in geometry

i wish that i never said i'd do nanowrimo(.org) for my senior project

i wish that halloween wasn't over yet

i wish that winter would just go/stay away

i wish i could freeze time

i wish that my dad wouldn't drink

i wish that my dad didn't have bi-polar & add & alcoholism

i wish that i could pick which college to go to

i wish i knew where to start looking

i wish that i wouldn't feel guilty for things

i wish that i was a 'typical teen'

i wish i didn't think so much

i wish that i had my drivers license

i wish that i could use messenger on my school computer

i wish the justice system was actually fair

i wish that I could find my webcam disc

i wish that life wasn't always hard for some people

i wish i knew what you wished

...trick or treat!...

Well, it is now officially 9:51pm on October 31, 2003. And what am I doing? Blogging. I missed my blog something fierce during my break. And I even kept visiting it, just to see if people commented. and they did. thanks :)

I wasn't as good about doing my schoolwork as I had hoped, but I'm getting there. The first 2 days I barely did any school, because we went out and to my grandmother's. So I didn't get stuff done then, but I hope I made up for it the rest of the days. It was hard.

My halloween trick-or-treat night was yesterday, and frankly, it was pathetic. Trick or treat lasts from 6pm-8pm in my town, and last year we got at least 80 kids (which we weren't prepared for) so this year we made up 80 bags of candy for the treaters and guess how many came. 22. twenty-two! That stinks! This is a breakdown of my night.

5:15pm - pick up my dad from work, and I drive (yep, me) home, rushing so I'll have time to get ready before the treaters come.

5:30 - arrive home, get dressed up in my short shorts and my black tank with sorta-plaid shirt overtop so I vaguely resemble daisy duke. No time to curl my hair. I did however have time to put makeup on my eyes and lips and I must say I liked how it looked.

6:00pm - 6:37= no trick or treaters

6:37= 1 trick or treater, that was so scared/timid she barely managed to take her candy bag. I didn't let my bro scare her, much to his disappointment.

6:38 - 6:58- no treaters

7:13= 1 trick or treater, almost passed by our house till a neighbor told her we were giving candy out. barely managed to say thanks. sigh.

7:26= 2 little boys- 1 in stroller, 1 walking.

7:35=4 kids

7.38= 4 kids

7:58=7 kids - a few neighbors, which turned out to be the biggest group of the night :(

8.02= 3 kids

8:03= come inside, but keep the porch light on in case some kids stop by and want candy.

9:00= give up.

... this stinks...

well, it does. I'm not going to be blogging for a bit. Starting tomorrow. Until at least Friday night/Saturday sometime. I'm bogged down with school, and I have too many distractions. Wonderfully fantastic, lovely distractions. I'm going to miss them dearly this week. But I've come to the conclusion that as much as I adore talking to everyone on messenger, and blogging my day, and reading other websites, I just can't do it this week. I'm essentially grounding myself, before my mom has to resort to grounding me. I got done maybe a total of 25 hours of school last week, when I need 30. And the way today went, this week isn't going to go much better unless I resort to drastic measures.

So, I'm very sorry, and I luv ya all, but... I've never gotten anything lower than a C on my report card (once, 4th grade, math) and last year I was straight 'A's with only 1 B the whole year... but it's already the end of the first quarter this year and I still have like.... a month's worth of assignments to do. oy.

I feel like my world is horribly close to teetering off it's axis. And once it falls off, it's over with. I get absolutly miserable when I get a B or lower on my report card, I cry, I don't eat, etc etc. And I think I'm close to that B now because of not having work handed in, so I'm going to use this week and work my @$$ off in school so I'm all caught up. And then I'll be ok. hopefully.

So.... see ya saturday.

... it's a car! no, wait, it's a computer ...

my mom's computer makes a bunch of noises. I'm sitting at my school computer half-heartedly doing my schoolwork, with a watchful eye on mom's computer where I have my Instant Messengers on. I kept waiting for a window to pop up, someone kind enough to relieve my boredom and rescue me from the evil trenches of chemistry. Alas, no messages popped up. I did however notice that my mom's computer makes crunchy noises. Right before something happens, such as a window popping up (I noticed this before, not tonight because as I said nobody wants to talk to me tonight) or going to screensaver, it makes a weird noise. It sounds like it has to turn all of it's rusty gears before it can do anything. Even now, when nothing is going on (no screensaver, no windows popping up) it's making those gear noises. It's a strange thing to listen to.

My mom keeps complaining about the silence. I found out it's nearly impossible for me to concentrate on World Lit., Chemistry, or Geometry with the tv on. My brother and my sister can't concentrate with it on either. So, for about 6 hours a day, we turn the computer off, and all you can hear is the occasional typing, mouse clicking, or the muttered "darnit that's not the answer" (from zac or heidi) or even the under-the-breath "geometry sucks" (from me). Other than that, we're pretty much silent for most of the time. Occasionally one will mention an amusing story we've read, or get up to answer the phone, but mainly just silence. My mom hates it. She turns into a little kid. Or, more accuratly, my grandfather. My grandfather always has to instigate trouble, or be the center of attention. I'm noticing that trait in my mom more and more with each silent day. Someone will be concentrating on an assignment and she'll walk by and poke you just so you say something. Or she'll throw something at someone to get a reaction. I swear, she hates the silence. Twice today she said "it's soooo quiet in here!", which, in case you didn't notice, spoils the silence.

Did you ever notice how when the house is missing one person, it gets so much quieter? Usually my dad isn't home during the day, so with him gone (he has a nice but LOUD personality) and us doing school, it's quiet. As soon as he gets home, the dog (a beagle/bassett hound) starts howling, everyone gets up to say "hi how was your day" etc and the noise level goes way up. It's kinda crazy, and kind of nice at the same time because I think we'd all go crazy if it were silent here all of the time.

Anyone ever hear Blur? the band? Wobbie recommended them, let me hear them on 'voice' in yahoo messenger (and I heard his aussie accent! woohoo! lol), and from what I heard of them I like them, but I was just wondering if anyone has any song/album recommendations for them? Anyway, if you do please let me know in comments/email/IM. thanks :)

...well, it's a bit messed up, but here it is...

So, yea. Here it is. My halloween template. Crappy halloween template. I'd like it lots more if it weren't so smushed up against the left of the window, but sorry can't fix it. And you'll only have to suffer through it for a little while lol. I got the pic from sxc.hu and edited it and flipped it around etc to get those 2 pics up there. They're kinda misaligned. but yea well, deal with it :p

I wanted a pumpkin (pronnounced poomp-kin) layout, and now I got one so as long as I squint I'm happy with it. lol. Oh please let me know if it's too hard to read, I'll change the font color. Rather have visitors than a pretty template!

I'm swamped in school right now, so I can't blog very often. sorry.

...this title field kills my blog...

That title field distracts me. I might take it out. I'll have a blog all nice and formulated in my mind, but then I see the title field and realize I have to put something in there that alludes to what is in my post, and it deflates my imagination.

I always think through my posts before I post them. The only one that I can think of where I didn't pre-write was my tomato plant smell post. Usually it's now while I'm typing it, usually i have planned almost exactly what I want to say. When it has a good topic that is. When it's just random babbling about what my day was, it is just that- random babbling. But stuff like... wow, that's pathetic, I haven't had any good posts in awhile. Why on earth do you people keep coming back? I mean of course I'm glad and everything, but it's dull. I don't know if I'd come back to my blog if I were a reader.

Hmm ok so a post that I didn't actually think out before hand. One that is a little less boring then those 'what i did today' posts. Well, this one sort of relates because the conversation I'll mention happened today, but it's not quite the same. Here we go...

For my World Lit. class I will have to pretend I'm a couple from one of the stories I've read and write marriage vows. I was talking this over with wobbie (remember him? he doesn't read this "bloody blog" anymore hehe) today. I was telling him it was going to be easy to write because I'll just have to get into character. But now I'm not so sure. I mean, what do I know? I've never been in love. Sure, I read romance books and know the general romantic tone but it's not the same thing. I won't feel like my words are coming from my heart, because they're not. My heart has never been in love like that, so I'm afraid the characters are going to sound wooden almost. Like they're reading from a script. Because that's basically what I'd be doing; writing a script for them based on other scripts I've read or saw on tv. I've no memories of past loves (since there hasn't been any), no heart breaking assunder at the mere thought of being parted from the one I love, nothing like that. I know what I hope to hear someday, or hope to say someday, but I don't know if it'll work in the story because this couple is supposed to have one of those eternal loves. Oh and also I can't get over the fact that it's not my vows to write. There's a reason the story was printed, because the author used his words and brought forth emotions. Doesn't it seem a bit arrogant to say well even though he didn't see fit to write these vows I can do it? I mean yes, I will do it, because it is an assignment. I just think it's a rather difficult one given that I've nothing to base the feelings on.

Well there ya go. I didn't think that out one bit, so if it sounds crappy or confusing, that's why :)

New template... coming soon.... I know, I keep saying that. sigh. but this time I mean it cause I hate how my posts look in this template. update @ 1:55am: I have a template all ready. well, not quite, it still has to have the blogger and commenting codes put in it, but my pics are uploaded etc etc. So the hardest part is over with, and I'll have my new template up hopefully tomorrow morning, but if not then tomorrow night. I'm too tired to do it now. goodnight.

...no new template so far... sorry

Hi guys. I'm sorry, I don't think you're getting a new template anytime soon. At least not tonight. I'm sick of html. lol. I tried so hard to make my own, but it looked stupid so I gave up. And then I decided to just find one I liked, which was hard to do and I scrapped like 3 of them (after I had downloaded them) because i kept deciding they weren't right or they didn't work out. sigh.

...sooo.....

soo....My birthday was great, we went out for pizza and went and saw "the School of Rock". It was pretty good, a bit cheesy at parts but it could have been a lot cheesier I think. It was definetly funny, my dad was laughing a lot. We all were, but he's harder to get to laugh sometimes lol.

Then we dropped my brother and dad at work, and went home... and mom, hoov, and I watched "the Italian Job" which I really enjoyed. Funny, full of action... I recommend with 4 1/2 gold stars (out of 5). hehe.

Today we watched "About a Boy" with Hugh Grant. It was ok, I laughed a bit because of the sort of dry humor. And then tonight after my dad got home from work we all watched "4 feathers" which I think was ok, but I fell asleep (off and on) during the last hour and a half so I really can't say for sure.

A new template really will be up soon. I just have to find that darned winzip. grrr.

School is going ok, I'm not doing as many hours as I should be doing, but I really do plan on getting on track this week. I'm all caught up in my World Lit. class, and there's a couple classes I can't/don't know where to start in... but other than that it's pretty good. Oh, side note: I hate geometry.

I filled out the application today for a department store close to my house (at a mall, about 2 miles away). I've actually been wanting to work there for 2 years [since i was 16, gosh i feel old!] but they only hire 18+ which really stinks. But anyway, pleeeeeease cross your fingers for me, as I really want this job. I think it'll be cool. Plus the extra money would be great, seeing as how we're getting into winter and that's my dad's businesses slow season. I think I'll like working at this store, mainly old people shop there, and I really like old people. Well, maybe not really like, but I like them more than kids my age. I just can't talk to people my age, I dunno why. a slight flaw I guess. But with older people, I can talk. So I want to work at a place with older people. There's a few younger (my age... and in early 20s) people there, doing the cash registars and stuff, but the customers are mainly older people.

I want to do the cash registars. I just always did, I don't know why. I used to tell my mom I was going to be a cashier when I grew up.... (a cashier or a lawyer...hmmm, which one to choose?). Oh, and there was this period where I really wanted to be a waitress. My dream job would have been one of those jobs where you do the cashier sometimes, and waitressing others. I don't know, I was/am a weird kid. lol. My dreams have changed now though, I am definetly going to be a lawyer now. Although I might have to get a cashier/waitress job just to get through college, lol. But anyway, so yea, I have my application and am putting it in... either tomorrow or the next day. So cross your fingers for me, for good luck, would ya?

my bday

Tomorrow is my 18th birthday. yay. I feel old. sigh.

...sorry so short but...

I've a bunch of things to look up online and I just wanted to give Lyra the info on the archives. Wherever you want the archives you need to put this:
<BloggerArchives>
<a href='<$BlogArchiveLink$>'><$BlogArchiveName$></a>
</BloggerArchives>

and you might have to change the 'archives' tab under settings. if you have any problem maybe you can catch me on yahoo IM (alien4004) or AIM (aliengurl4004) sometime and I can show you then. Or you could just explain what you're confused about, or what I messed up, in the comments and I can try again. Let me know if it helped :) (and it wasn't a dumb question)

O yea Roscoe sorry I don't know where the ghost town was... I have postcards I can scan if you want to see if it looks like the one you know of? Or I can ask my grandma next time she calls... :)

Thanks for saying you like the pics guys, I love taking pics and I loved my vacation.

I'm off to search for stuff, tata.

...an update...

Pics will be up very soon. Or rather, a link to pics will be up very soon. At the moment the pics are downloading onto a CD on mom's computer, and I'm going to switch the disc over to this one and upload them to a site as soon as it's done DLing.

here they are.
Don't expect anything fancy as far as the picture album design goes, I think I'm just going to use an angelfire.com photo album template. hehe.

So... I guess this is the part where I tell you about my trip, eh? I don't know where to start.

I spent most the days trying to get up the energy to go swimming in my grandmother's park's heated pool. I know, I was lazy. but I enjoyed being lazy so :p

A few of the days we went to this one HUGE mall they had out there. It had 150 stores, and I bet we went in all of them. If not all, a good 120 of them. Mandy spent like $500 just there the one day, I spent about $20. I'm cheap. lol

We went up to Sedona. We did the one Pink Jeep Tour. That was a ton of fun. That was the best part of the trip, actually. It was soooo fun. You get driven around on a bright pink jeep, and you go over all these rugged 4x4 trails and you get to see all this beautiful scenery. My cousin and I sat in the seat that got the most bumps, and we enjoyed every second of it. We were screaming and laughing.... mucho fun.

We went to the Grand Canyon. I liked it and all, but I must say, it's a hole in the ground. I liked the IMax video about the Grand Canyon more than I actually liked visiting it. It's not that it's not amazing how big it is, it's very very huge, but after I saw it it's just like... ok, it's a hole. I think if I would have seen it at dusk or early morning it would have been better, but as it was it was like 4pm and all the colors looked rather pale. : /

We also visited Tortilla Flats, which has this really cool place where the walls are literally covered in dollar bills. You write your name on a dollar bill and they find some place on the wall or decorations or roof rafters to stick it and then it's there forever... or until it burns down again like it did 10 years ago. :[

Oh yes, we also visited this really cool ghost town. It was neat, it was just found one day... completely abandoned. And it was a coal mining town, so you could see the mines and such. We could have taken a tour of the mine but we didn't because it was hot and getting late.

And I think that's it as far as places we went. I really really loved the weather, 90 degrees (farenheit) with little/no humidity and sunny. ahhhh. I spent a lot of my time either in, or laying out by the pool.

And then when it was time to come home, it was a 5 1/2 hour plane ride. yuck. You don't know how numb your bum get until you've been sitting on a plane for 5 1/2 hours. We even had a stopover in Indianappolis on our way to Balitmore and we got to get up and change seats... that helped a bit but still... my poor bum. lol.

School started today. well, I started it before but today I really buckled down and did it. I think I'll do ok, I'm hoping to be caught up with 6 weeks of missed work by the end of this week. Mom says I'm pushing myself too hard though, so maybe I'll slack off that plan a bit. I dunno now.

A new template will be up as soon as I can find my Winzip disc. Halloween template :) (sorry Chris, I don't want the plane anymore. you want it? lol)

...I'm baaaaaaaaaack...

Yup, I'm back. I just wanted to let you all know that I'm home, safe and, well, safe. I don't know about sound, since I've been telling everyone about my week and practically talking non-stop. I really really don't have time to type a long blog about my week, but I will as soon as possible, I promise! I've 3 suitcases/bags to unpack, TONS of school to start/catch up/work on, and so I just thought I'd write in quick to let you all know I'm back. I have 4 packs (rolls) of photos, so I'll scan some of them then too. I'm exahusted, I'm still on Arizona time which is 3 hours behind this, and I woke up at 7am today, which was really only 4am Arizona time... so I'm tired.

Thanks to hoover and roscoe for guest blogging! I read them, they were great. And thanks anyway for the effort Leesa, sometimes blogger is just stupid and won't let things go through, but I really do appreciate you being willing to blog :)

Roscoe, I got postcards, so as soon as I can (this week hopefully...) I'll send them off to you. I got yours, thanks bunches :)

Okies, school to do, more later, adios.

Howdy From Roscoe

Sorry, Hoov, we just thought you should be first... You are her sister.... lol.

Anyway, a guest blog for Heather.... Think about this I must.....
Here we go:

The Meaning of Insanity(okay, I am SO just kidding)

Nah, in all reality, if you ain't a little crazy, then you don't really have a life. Think about it. How many things in your life could be called "Normal"?

Then think about this: What IS "normal"...

Trust me, no one around here is "normal", (Though that is almost always what we dress as for Halloween, LOL)
But, as most if us would agree, "normality" is highly over rated. To be a "normal" teenager, I'd have to wear belly shirts, low-riding bell bottoms, have dyed hair and use more slang than most Webster Dictionaries know.

Not that's there is anything wrong with being like that, but it just isn't me, and the same goes for many other "normal" or "abnormal" teens. Sure, most of us do shop at Walmart, but if we all bought the same clothes... Ugh, how boring. We'd be like the Clones in "Star Wars"; nameless, faceless, and totally equal in every little way.

Uh oh, I changed the subject by using the word "equal". opps.....

By the word "equal", I mean in my different ways. We'd be "equal" in height, weight, hair and skin color, tastes, likes, dislikes....

It'd go on and on....
Whoa, and how boring would that be. There'd be no great movies, cause no one would be original enough to think of a boat load of cursed pirates or a three-thousand-year-old dead guy brought back to life by a curse...(I seem to be lingering on the word 'curse'). There'd be no great blogs like this one, or Hoover's, on even my Blog.

So next time you check this page to see what Heather or any of us, her guest bloggers, have to say, and you see we barely wrote anything or have written three pages of babble, just remember one thing...

At least we were original enough to do so!

(Making a painful yet somewhat funny point) Your Goof-istly and Truly,
Roscoe
P.S. No, I do not suffer from insanity... I enjoy every nano-second of it!

Dedicated to Heather and all her fans:

Just because I didn't blog for heather, doesn't mean that you shouldn't! come on people, get the guests blogs going! Anyway...

I just talked with Heather on the phone. She is fine, arrived in Arizona safe and sound. Good thing to. My mom and I were watching a movie about these 3 airplane waitress people (what are they called? I can't remember), and the one started out in this plane that was in very bad condition and stuff... this was while heather was flying into Arizona!



I am terribly busy with schoolwork, and have barely the time to even do this blog... but I will blog... for heather :)

I miss heather, I really do, but not that much that I'm sitting here crying my eyes out. believe it, or not.... but I ain't... I know shes coming back in a few days, so, I (surprizingly) didn't cry. I am a pretty big cryer... my family calls me a baby... but sometimes I just can't help it...
I know when heather goes to college I'll be crying my eyes out. my mom and I will probably use a billion boxes of tissues. hehe. oh well, life goes on... right? I think I say that on blogs alot... hmm...

this is kind of like a practise thing for when she goes to college, I guess. thats what I keep thinking...




want to know something that isn't very surprizing? the house is ALOT quieter without heather! I should really get a taperecorder, and record it that way I can let heather listen to it when she comes back so she will actually believe me. The only noise right now is the sound of me typing, my brother on the exercise machine upstairs, and the tv... no heather.... eww! speaking of tv! pok'emon is on, I don't like poke'mon (or wherever that thingy goes in it, poke'mon, pok'emon, whichever)... ewwww... I should turn it... but when my bro comes downstairs he will probably turn it back anyway.


wow, this is getting pretty long...

I now get to say that I was indeed the first guest blogger on heathers blog... I should be, anyway. it was my idea... or maybe I should be second... 'cause, did ya ever hear that saying "first is the worst, second is the best, third is the one with the hairy chest"? I remember heather, my bro, and I running to the car saying that... oooh, what memories, memories with heather *sighs* no, really, its not that bad. lol, that was just a little joke thing to put there.. hahahahaha, get it?
I doubt anyone is reading this....
okay, now I'm gonna go....
peace out!

...calling all guest bloggers...

you can now blog. i'm on vacation :) I'm at my cousins now, we leave tomorrow for the airport at 6:30am. *yawn* Anyway, I don't have time to type, i'm going to walmart and then a friend of my cousin's house. bye :)

...picture me, in that plane...

Hello people. This is the 'secret' lol. Some secret, isn't it? Not really even worth the hype, except I like it so :p I know it's messed up on the links/contact part, but I can't fix it, and I would try to figure it out more but I don't have the time to. Dad's talking about waking us all up at 7am to clean. *gag* It's 11:35 now, so that does mean like 7 hours sleep... but it still stinks. It's different if I have something to do, that I'm actually excited about waking up that early, but waking up to clean??? No thanks.

We got our Dell's today :) :) :) They have to be the best computers I've seen/used yet. They are amazingly fast, and they're black, with a 17inch flat screen monitor, and.... well, just amazing. They run Windows XP OS, which I know a lot of people hate but I didn't find any flaws in it yet. But then again, all I'm allowed to do with it is go on it for school (ABSOLUTLY NOTHING ELSE!!! I've been warned) so I don't really have a chance to play on it to find the flaws :( I don't even get to play the games that come preloaded in it. Or mess around with the music/dvd burner it has installed. Nada. All is offlimits to me. sigh. But still, it's a cool computer, and we got a really really fast and cool Lexmark PrinTrio X1150 copier/scanner/fax/printer. It's really really cool. And it came with the USB plug/powercords/ink that you need to use it. Very cool. I love it all. Can you tell? lol. I even love my little dell mouse, it has the laser instead of the wheel/ball thingy. And everything matches. hehe. The only thing that would make it better if I were allowed to go on regular internet/IMs on it. But I can't, they have a watchdog sort of thing (I saw it, it monitors everything, darnit). So, if I'm not on messenger or blogger much, it's because I'm either on vacation!!! or because I'm doing school, or because one of my siblings is on this computer, which is the only computer (besides my moms that we can only use when she isn't..) that is hooked up to the internet. Hopefully we'll be getting another 1 (possibly 2) computers online soon, but until then... this is it.

And now I'm going to end this, and say goodbye :( I'll miss you all, be sure to comment lots on this post (let me know what you think of the template) and make sure you comment on my guest-blogger's posts, I'm sure they'd appreciate it. I'm getting teary eyed thinking of being away from my blog/computer for so long. Sigh. But Arizona will be worth it, right? Of course it will be. I just have seperation anxiety. lol, who says you have to be a mom or a kid to get that? You can get it from your computer, too. lol. Bye everyone, and when I come back expect tons of pics to be posted, and stories of my 'vacation'.

...i usually forget to fill this in, and have to go back after i publish. not this time though!...

Sheesh it's chilly. "well heather, you moron, why don't you just turn on the heater?" Answer: because I like to sleep in the semi-cold, well at least not warm/hot, and if I turn the heater on now it will get hot in my room very quickly and when I go to bed I will be roasting. My bed is surrounded by the heater on 2 1/2 sides (the top/head side, my right side, and a bit of the bottom of the bed). The heater runs completely along 2 walls in my room, and halfway down another. That makes it very warm in my room. So, I don't like to have the heater on at night when I don't have to, I prefer my nice comfy cozy comforter/blanket.

I'm sitting here, munching green/string beans, with my blanket on my lap and a long sleeved shirt, jeans, and the hated socks on. grumble grumble. I'm thinking I should probably go to bed, but in all honesty I'm not tired. I fell asleep on the sofa around 8 or so, and slept for probably an hour, so I'm not tired at all. I still should probably try to go to bed, if for no other reason than I'm cold. Oh, and also because I will probably have a busy day tomorrow, because I have to go to the pharmacy and get my 'script' (perscription) refilled, because I won't have enough to last 2 weeks. And so I have to get that filled, and clean because on Friday a lady is coming to see about 'weatherizing' our house. Which is definetly a good thing, but still kinda a pain in the butt to clean for because we don't know exactly what they'll be looking at (will they need to go in my room? bathroom? basement?) so we have to pick-up/clean everything.

Leesa and Roscoe it still says your blogger team member invites are pending, so if you didnt' get it or want me to resend the invite let me know ASAP because I leave Saturday and it will be too late by then (Friday is probably the last day I'll be allowed online). If you changed your mind, and/or found out you won't have the time to blog that's ok, just please let me know so I'm not obsessing about it. :)

I still don't have school, hoover does though. So for now I'm helping her out (when she asks, like.. where's the Square Root button on the calculator) and waiting... impatiently... for my school to start.

I signed up for Nanowrimo, and (even though she said I have to sign up) when I told my mom she groaned. Apparently she thinks I'm going to be miserable to live with during my novel writing month. She thinks maybe I'll be obsessing about my book, taking a notebook everywhere with me and writing down ideas, spending hours in front of the computer, become more anti-social... *grin* does all that sound like something I'd do?? hehe... yup! So november should be a lot of fun, but probably only for me. Hehe.

And Chris B., you are not allowed to tell! Everyone else just has to wait until Friday...

...brr...

i'm freezing! Which, if you've talked to me on instant messenger at all today, you already know. Stupid pennsylvania weather. i hate it. I swear I am moving out west (or to australia *sighs dreamily*) when I'm older.

Today I went to walmart and got a light jacket to take with to AZ (my grandma said I'll need one for when we go see the grand canyon), and I got some undies, and a bra, and some deodorant. And now all I have to do is get my prescription filled again before I leave and I'm all set :) Mom even sewed my one shirt so i can take that with too. I'm a happy camper. except I hate camping, so if I were actually camping I wouldn't be happy. lol. So I'm just happy, forget the camper reference.

NaNoWriMo registration starts Oct. 1st! I was waiting exitedly for midnight, thinking I'd sign up right at midnight... until I realized that they mean pacific time... so I'd have to be awake till 3am. grrr. So tomorrow morning I'll register instead. Oh, for those wondering, NaNoWriMo is short for National Novel Writing Month. It's where you're challenged to write a 50,000 word novel in the month (30 days) of November. I was really excited about it a few months back, and then I realized how much work it will be and how much work I will already have in November so I started to lose my enthusiasm and change my mind, but my mom said "Heather, you should do it. You need something for your college applications" So, by mom's command, I'm going to attempt it. And now, as I think about it, I'm getting my enthusiasm back :) I'm going to need people to yell at me and encourage me though, cause it works out to about 1,666 words a day, and when you couple that with the 30 hours of school a week, plus the possible part time job I should probably get when i get back from Arizona.. I'm getting tired already and it's not even November.

And I'm bored, and I'm tired, and I'm cold. And that's too many 'and's, my english teacher would cry. Sorry. Goodnight.

...la de da ta ti da ta da.... la de da ta ti da ta da...

I made a new blog! Ok, so not really. Remember that weight one I had that i never ever updated? Well I changed it into a 'where's Heather' blog. Now if you see my
"where's Heather?" status message on Yahoo or AIM, please do not IM me because chances are I'll be away from my computer for awhile since I bothered to put up a note saying where I am. Oh yea, the note that says where I am, for those curious, is going to be at http://wheresheather.blogspot.com I made that site because I hate how yahoo only lets you type a short bit for your away message, and I figured with this I can just type as much as I want. hehe.

Umm.. I was going to say something else... what was it....?

Oh yea, new link. Jade. She's 10 years old and posts lots! So there's always something new to read, which I like :)

...I <3 Happy Bunny!!!!!!!...

I love Happy Bunny!!!!!! He's so cute and funny!! When we went to Pittsburgh we stopped at a Pizza Hut and got stickers in one of those vending machines, and we were laughing like crazy at them. They're only 50cents a sticker if you get them at the vending machine in Pizza Hut in Pittsburgh, but they're $3 through the Jimbenton.com (creator) website. I think they're worth either price, I love Happy bunny! My sticker has the bunny and it says "not listening" and my bro's says "Whatever, you moron" Hoover's says "I just don't get it" and my mom's says "it worries me how dumb you are" lol. There is also a bunch of Happy Bunny stuff on ebay.com, like stickers, pins, license plate frames, and even a wallet. There's even a notebook for school that says "school prepares you for the real world. which also sucks". And there's happy bunny mints in metal tins, really funny ones. A bunch of hilarious stuff. I think they're hilarious anyway. I did a search on ebay.com for happy bunny stuff and I was laughing like crazy. I've heard you can also get the happy bunny stuff at Hot Topic, but we don't have a Hot Topic where I live :( So anyway, that's my latest want. I want happy bunny stuff!!! :)

...pick a number between 10 and 30...

And that would probably be the number of how many blog templates I've had. I really really wish I could say a definite number, but I can't because before when I thought we were getting rid of my computer I deleted all the template codes I had saved on my computer (all the templates/codes this blog has ever used were there), and now even though we kept my computer I don't have those templates. So I had to start over. Currently I have 6 (? I think) codes in the folder, so that means I've had 6 templates in like the past... 3 months? Maybe not. Somewhere close to that though. I can't even just look back at my archives to see how many I've had, because I made the simplicity template my main archive template because some of the old templates looked messy and unreadable in the archives. So, I've no idea how many templates I've had :( I just know I get bored with a template easily, I can love it one day and the next be ready for a complete change. I've done dark, light, bright, and in between. And fruits & veggies. I've had a string bean template, and a cherry template. I've had templates I used more than once, my record one was a dark black/blue-ish one that I used like 4 different times. I still like it, but thinking back on it I realize that it wasn't exactly organized very well. But then again, that suits my personality, lol.

So yep, I've no clue. If anyone has any guesses (like maybe amanda or amy would have guesses since they've been visiting from the beginning (even if they have stopped visiting occasionally, hehe) Anyway, if you have a guess comment it, I'm guessing somewhere between 10 and 30 templates. lol.

I got my ID for the plane trip. Well, it's an actual ID, not just for the plane trip. I got it through the driver's center, instead of my license because my car is broke. So we coughed up the $9 and just got me the ID instead of worrying about me passing my drivers test and fixing my car first etc etc. The pic on it is ok, it looks a bit weird but pretty much how I expected it to look. It almost looks like my lips and my skin is the same color though, so that's weird. And I form a triangle. Lol. My hair fans out at the bottom around my shoulders so it's like a triangle /'''\ like that. lol


This might be the last posting for awhile, seeing as how I think school starts tomorrow. The teacher said she'll put our IDs in sometime 'next week' (she said it last week) so mom's hoping that tomorrow when we wake up we can start school... but I'm not betting on it. I think maybe the teacher meant 'next week' as in like Wednesday. She said ASAP since she knows we can start because we have computers already, and the one middle school teacher told hoover to email her teachers on Monday... so maybe they will have us entered into the system tomorrow. Guess we'll see, right? Anyway, if I don't blog for awhile, I'm super busy. I promise I wll blog again before I leave on Saturday for AZ. And I'll put the new template up then, so all my wonderful guest bloggers will have a new template to post on. :) Oh, speaking of guest bloggers, Leesa and Roscoe I sent out your invites but it says you're not a member yet. Leesa I sent yours to the email that you have in the comments, I hope that's ok? If you need me to send it somewhere else just let me know. Roscoe, I sent yours to your @go.com one.

I'm sleepy.... goodnight.

...my mind is a blank...

wearing: my nightie
watching: I think SNL is on
talking to: chris & mochasomethingorother
surfing: through all the blogs on my list
mood: comfy. i took a bubble bath :)

I just got out of my bath, so i'm all ready to go to bed, I'm cozy and warm and slightly sleepy. You know that relaxation you feel when you first get out of a warm bath (or when you're in it)? That's how I feel now. Only problem is I don't want to go to bed. And I used this bath oil stuff and my fingers are all weird/soft and it's hard to type :(

I did have something to blog about. But after my bath, I forgot. sorry. Have a good night everyone.

...say it with me now-- sassy!

ok so, new template in case you didn't notice. please please please tell me if it's too hard to read or tell me what's wrong with it. I don't have a lot of time invested in it so if you all hate it I'll change it no problemo.

My dad got this bottle (to sell-- it's now sitting on my desk, hehe) at an auction, and I wanted to take a pic of it and figure out some way to get it into a blog template. I just love the bottle. We need drinks now adays called sassy. I just like saying sassy, lol.

This is actually the american hi fi template from blogskins.com but I edited it a bit and changed the pic to my Sassy bottle. I don't normally do that, unless the designer says to leave credit to them, but this designer said nothing about leaving a link or anything on to them, so it's ok to edit, right? Anyway, what do you think of the sassyness?

I'd post more, but I'm tired so goodnight. I get my photo ID tomorrow, I'll have bags under my eyes. lol. but I usually do so no big deal.

...What is that noise?!?...

Sometimes at night I can hear things rustling in the kitchen. Like that sound chip bags (which we have lots of) being opened. It's not gidget, no, she's curled up on her pillow dreaming silently about whatever dogs dream of. It's not anyone else, they're all upstairs sleeping, and this noise is definitely coming from the kitchen. Now if it were just one night this happened I'd write it off to an over active imagination, but it's been quite a few nights this happened.

At the risk of sounding crazy, I think it's possible it's a ghost. Although I've never seen him/her/it. It's just that as soon as I turn on the light, or even go into the kitchen, the noise stops. I've decided it can't be that a squirrel or some such creature got in, because Gidget is a basset hound/beagle mix, and is very sensitive to any smells/noises an animal makes, especially squirrels, and she barks at them at every opportunity. Even if a squirrel is just outside in our yard, and Gidget can smell it somehow, she howls and howls. So why wouldn't she howl at this? So I'm going to assume it's a ghost. But I've never seen it, which bothers me because I've seen others (honestly, I'm not crazy, I really have seen ghosts). I'm not scared or anything, I think most ghosts are just souls that have something left to do before they move on. Even so, I'd rather there not be one in our house. Especially since I don't know what the ghost is about. I don't think it's evil, or we'd probably all be dead by now. But just the same, to put to rest some lurking thoughts of the ghost possibly being mean, I'm going to get some sage and put it around the house. Sage is supposed to ward off evil (maybe just evil ghosts? not sure), in case you didn't know.

And now for an update on school. Well, not an update, but a re-date. Not that that's a word, but I'm tired so you're just going to have to pretend like that made sense, ok? I met my senior project advisor (she's also my world lit. teacher) and she is super nice. And she's also slightly crazy. but in a good way, lol. She tells me I have to show up for graduation ceremony and do the whole cap & gown thing, which I was trying desperately to avoid having to attend. But no, I must attend I'm told. It's june 11th. My mom was ecstatic to hear that, which I told her just because I have to attend doesn't mean she is going to. lol. My dad was happy (jokingly... i think?) when I said mom won't have to go, because as he said "if she doesn't have to, I don't either". But it doesn't matter, because she's going to go even if I don't want her to, because she says at the very least for all the work she's done with/for my school, I "owe her" to get up on stage and do the whole cap & gown thing. And my mom told my grandparents about graduation (it's in Pittsburgh), and they said "oh I don't know if we can travel that far, we'll have to see when we get closer to June". I didn't know they wanted to come! Ahhh! Not that I don't love my grandparents, I do, but if I don't even want my mom to come... I don't like getting up on stage in front of people I know. Getting up on stage in front of people I don't know and will never see again I'm fine with. But to actually have to go on stage in front of people I know?? yikes.

Oh also, about the graduation ceremony, instead of bringing her flowers as traditional she wants chocolate. I guess because she'll be like my senior advisor and a major part of my school success I'm supposed to bring her flowers when I graduate? seems backwards to me, shouldn't I be the one getting flowers?? Anyway, she said she wants chocolate not flowers, and the bigger the chocolate bar the better. And she's partial to almonds. Oh, and she also said, at the beginning of orientation, that even though all the other teachers at orientation were probably younger than her (she's about my mom or dad's age, around there) she is the 1) smartest and 2) the prettiest. And anyone who agrees with her gets an automatic 'A'. lol. And then after orientation was over (2 1/2 hours long) as we were leaving my dad turns back to her and says "by the way, you were right" and she's like what about? and he says "you are the prettiest" and she does this hilarious little dance/jig and says yes yes! Like how the football players that get touchdowns dance, it was a weird little dance like that. Anyway, to sum it up, she is super nice and quirky. Yes, that's a good word for her, quirky. Hehe, she's great. And all the other teachers/administrators that were there were really nice too. I think I'm going to like this school, really like it. I'm almost sad that I'll only have a year there. And only about 3/4 of that year left. I'll probably change my mind about being sad at only having a year left once I get piled with work, but for now I like it and am looking forward to it. Someone please do me a favor and remind me that I was actually excited about it, once upon a time, when I complain in a couple months.

Oh, and I have to do that senior project in front of people! AHHHHH! I'm supposed to actually get up on stage and present my project for all the people to see. AHHH!! My advisor said that if it would create a hardship for us (aka driving 7 hours each way to Pittsburgh) she can come to our house and I can just present it for only her, since she has relatives that live close to my house anyway so she's up in my area quite a bit. Or, she said, it's possible that she might allow me to do a powerpoint presentation instead. Which I don't know how to do, but if it entails me not having to do a presentation, believe you me, I will learn. And I will learn how to do powerpoint quickly and extremely well if she allows me to present it that way. Anything to avoid presenting it in front of anyone. lol. Let's just hope she doesn't somehow get my URL and read this. I don't want her to know how much I dread some of the things I mentioned.

Oh and may, now that I told you my spellchecker doesn't stop at lowercase words that should be capitalized, it changed. grr. stupid evil spell checker. who needs capitalization?

Hmm, well there's probably more I could say, because I'm feeling unusually chatty for it being after midnight, but my fingers and my toes are freezing, and my eyelids are slowly starting to shut, so I guess I should go to bed. Ahh, my nice warm comfy blanket awaits me there...

wearing: jeans and navy tank
watching: bro's watching 'who's line is it anyway?'
talking to: nobody. grr.
surfing: nothing. too tired to surf
mood: sleepy

Hello everyone. I'm very very very tired. It was an approx. 7 hour drive each way so that's like 14 hours in a van. Granted, we did have a lot of stops to go bathroom, get food, etc, but it was still a long trip.

I got tons of pictures, but they're mainly of clouds, lol. Coming home there were these awesome puffy (cumulous?) clouds, and they were all different shades of gray/white. And I love clouds, so I took about 25 pics of clouds (digital camera, not real film lol). I took about 5 or so pictures of the tunnels that you have to pass through on the way to and home from Pittsburg, and 1 pic of my sister and me, 1 of my brother, and 1 each of my mom and dad. So, I got a bunch of pics, and I'm happy. Tired, but happy.

I still didn't unpack, and we've been home for 3 hours now. I've just been lazying around, watching the season premire of Gilmore Girls, and the series premire of...I forget the title, it's on after Gilmore. lol. one tree hill? something like that. Anyway, they were both only ok. I did manage to put a load of wash in the machine, which is the only thing mom requested I do so I'm ok with her now I think. ZzZzZzz.

Our new school looks great, it's very efficient and organized. I'm taking:
Psychology is something I've always thought would be interesting to take, and it counts for a Social Studies credit, which is a big plus because I hate regular social studies, lol. Oh, it's only a half credit (only one semester! yay!), but that's ok because I have tons of Social Studies credits from previous years.
Geometry I hate math. all math. From what I've learned of Geo. in previous years, Geometry will be no exception. But I have to take it if I want to do semi-ok on the SATs (which I bet I will do horrible on in math)
Chemistry I needed 2 lab sciences, had Bio already, so Chem is this year
World Literature I loved American Lit, so hopefully this will be just as great
Social Issues hehe, I don't know what this is about, it just sounded fun. 1/2 credit, 1 semester course, so even if I hate it it'll only last 1 semester
Career Planning I don't know why I picked this, I just did. same deal as Social Issues, 1/2 credit- 1 semester.

A sad thing about this new school is that on the computers they are supplying us with, we are not allowed to install anything. at all. Not allowed to email anyone from them, or Instant Message, or go to any other sites not related to school, etc. Nada. yuck. Oh and we have to do 30 hours a week, 1 hour per subject per day (5 days a week) pretty much. We can mix and match though, 6 hours 1 day, 3 the next, as long as we get all our assignments done and at least 30 hours in. And since I'm going to AZ in Oct. for about a whole week of school, I'll have a TON of stuff to make up. grrr. :( But I guess Arizona's worth it, lol :) I just wish I won't have so much to make up.

Well on the long drives (mom drove the whole way) I thought of a bunch of things I'd like to blog about, but frankly I'm too tired. So expect a better, longer update sometime soon.

Oh yea, and the Blogger invites went out tonight, so hopefully you all (Leesa, Roscoe, hoov) got them, and if you didn't please let me know (contact info is in top left corner or tag the chatterbox) and if you do guest blog... thanks!

ok now I'm really really tired, and now some people are going to come on messenger, because that's the way it always works out, and I'm going to be so happy to see them that I won't want to go to bed... lol. Yea well, might as well get in the talking while I can before school starts, right?

pics and farewell!!!

wearing: my blue granny sailboat design nightie lol
watching: the news i think
talking to: Roscoe!!!
surfing: angelfire, while uploading pics
mood: wishful...

Ok so I had all this typed up earlier, and then I had to restart my computer so it said want to save changes? and I clicked yes... where'd it save them too?? Anyway, I'm writing it all over...

Ok so since I'm leaving for Pittsburg tomorrow I thought it might be kinda cool if I posted some pics I took the last (also the first) time I was there. Because I don't want to throw my alignment of the design off, or force anyone who doesn't want to look at them to see them(although you should see them, they're cool pics. well, I like them lol), and/or to save site loading time, they're going to be links to pics. They were taken over a year ago, so I'm not exactly sure of the reasons I took all of them, but I like them. all were taken with my mom's regular 110 film required camera. There's 5. They are:

a cool perspective- the view from our hotel room window. I like this perspective, it's not exactly normal. I love the crosswalks! lol

another view from window- also a skyline/clouds pic. I like this one.

leaving Pittsburg- I really really like the colors in this pic. I think part of the blue tint is the window, and part is the time of day/lighting that there was. I just like it. I'd love it, if not for the giant coors lite billboard. grrr. Why'd they have to stick that in and ruin the view? Coors sign or not, this is my fav. pic out of these

went for a walk, got this pic- this one just seems kind of empty to me. lonely almost. I like it though, and I like how the bridges look in the background (bridges are what I was originally taking the pics of, oops misfocused)

another bridge- well, I just liked this bridge. Again, snapped on the walk. We ended up walking to the Heinz Ketchup museum. hehe. that was..interesting. lol.

Ok so that's it for pics of Pittsburg, how about one of my new haircolor? lol. I just colored it today. My mom was laughing at me because I took the pic, but I wanted to. So :P mom. I had flash off on the camera (mom's digital this time) so it's close to the real color. But not exactly. It's a bit brighter in the pic though, it's darker in actuality. and not so sand colored/ mud colored looking. and it's not quite that orange. well, it's a bit orange/red, but that'll fade because it always does, and I only just colored it today. lol. here's the pic.

My mom got a speeding ticket yesterday! she was supposedly going 59mph in a 45 zone. Even though we thought it was 55 speed limit, it was a highway for goodness sake. And there's a bunch of other flaws in this ticket. anyway, let's just cut to the chase... $132 fine! Sheesh! That's like $10 for every mile over. That's crazy. And even if you do want to fight the ticket, plead not guilty, you have to pay a fee, of like $50. What a rip-off!!!!

Ok, so Roscoe and Hoov will blog for me when I'm gone... and maybe Leesa? Lol, you don't have to if you don't want to or think you can't think of anything, but if you want to, let me know and I'll send you an invite to my team. Roscoe and hoov I'll send your invites on Wednesday probably if I don't forget. :)

Ok, so now it's time to say goodbye...to all our company...m-i-c WAIT A MINUTE. lol. oops, I was going mickey mouse club on ya *cringe* Anyway, this is probably the last time I'll get to blog until at least Tuesday night, possibly Wednesday. Don't forget to visit my blog when I get back, ok? Lol, I'll go away and then everyone will forget about me :( lol Well you'd better not, seeing as how I'll only be gone for 1 night, 2 days. :p

underwear quote, explained...

wearing: my 'daisy duke' jean shorts, and my black perfect circle band shirt (i don't like the band, love the shirt)
watching: the emmy's is on, I think
talking to: nobody. gosh. i do talk to people, honest! i'm not some loser that never talks to anyone.
surfing: http://drivingmenuts.blogspot.com
mood: happy i guess

Ok, for those who were curious, well, it didn't seem like anyone actually was, but anyway... the quote was from when we went to Kmart yesterday, and the guys underwear (mom had to buy some for my dad) was priced stupidly. Like, 5 pairs for $9.99 or 6 pairs for 7.99 (of the same brand/make!). And then some were like 5 for $5 and 6 for $6. So their prices totally didn't make sense. So right in the middle of the guys underwear section at Kmart I said "why is guys underwear so complicated?!?!?" hehe, my mom almost killed me. :)

And that's that, explained. And now my mom lost her Credit Card, so I'm going to help her look for it. cross your fingers for us. Update: I found it! yay for me. lol. It was in her wallet, inside a paper. I said, do you mind if I check your purse again? and she said no i don't care, and so I went through her wallet, found it, and said "found it you dork." and she was so busy getting over her near heart attack that she didn't even mind that I called her a dork. She said "I don't care that you called me a dork, so long as you found it" lol. So yea, I just wanted to say I found it. So you don't have to keep your fingers crossed though. I know you would have if I hadn't posted that I found it, and I don't want your fingers to get cramps ;)

wearing: black shorts light blue tank top (boring, lol)
watching: Trading Spaces
talking to: nobody again! well besides myself :)
surfing: hm. nowhere currently
mood: in between happy and eh.

hoover said I should have guest bloggers during the time I'm in Arizona. that'll be probably the 4th until the 14th. Maybe only the 5th-13th, it depends. But anyway.. if you want to be a guest blogger just let me know, and then I'll add you to my team and you can just blog anytime during my vacation. I'm not giving people any certain days, just whenever and however much you feel like it. Hoover already said she wants to, does anyone else?

My quote for the day is: "why is guy's underwear so complicated?!!!?" (said by me, today, at Kmart)

There was something else I was going to say, but the underwear quote made me forget. lol.

...like those annoying things on tv, this is only a test...

wearing: black shorts white tank
watching: MST3K :)
talking to: nobody :(
surfing: nothing
mood: eh..

...grrrrr @ Isabele...

Isabel is a hurricane, in case you're on the other side of the country (or world :) and didn't hear about it. We were lucky, I guess, we only lost cable (and internet) a few times, but kept our power. The street up from ours lost power due to a power line falling, and a bunch of other places lost power for a couple days or so. They might still be out of power, I'm not sure.

I'm very tired. I just woke up though, I slept from 8-10:20pm lol. I shouldn't still be tired. but I am.

My dentist appointment went well, except that the office cancelled the appointment because they thought I didn't want it anymore since I wasn't getting the plate thingy. I can see how they could get confused, after all, my mom did say "Heather doesn't want the plate anymore, but we still want to keep the appointment so she can talk a few things over with the dr." *rolls eyes* how could they misunderstand that? But it doesn't really matter, my 2:45 appointment came at 2:50 instead, and I got my questions answered, so it's ok. only a 5 minute wait, that's not bad lol.

I get in there and he fixes a couple things on my flipper (that's what the dentist calls it, lol) And then he says "ok now I'm not going to read you the riot act But...." and he asks me about how I care for the flipper thingy and everything. He was really nice about it, and I do take care of it so I didn't really care because I have nothing to hide. He told me how to take care of the thingy, and I followed his instructions exactly. I do, however, have an infection in my mouth though. grrr. He said it's because of like bacteria getting in there and cause you have to keep the plate thingy super clean. I do! I think the idea of not keeping the thing super clean is disgusting. But apparently stuff got in there anyway. A side effect of whatever infection I have is that you can see an outline of the plate in my mouth. (Only if you look with one of those mirror things, you can't just look at my mouth and see it, lol.)
I got a perscription, along with the assurance that this whatever it is (he was trying to explain it so me and my mom would understand, and he gave the example of a yeast infection! eeew! I have a yeast infection in my mouth! eeew lol) oh I lost track...uhh.. oh, whatever it is isn't bad or contagious or anything, some people have it for like 50 years and don't notice it... but "if it can be treated, why not treat it?" So I'm getting rid of it. asap. eew.

I drove yesterday!!! A lot!! Yay for me. WTG heather. lol. I'm tooting my own horn. lol. My parents said I should take my test sometime. Because it doesn't really matter if I fail, it doesn't cost anything until I think the 3rd time you fail (which I hopefully won't fail that many times lol) and then at least I'll know what I have to work on, assuming I fail. Which I probably will, because that's just how I am. I took my permit knowledge questions test twice. It was down to the last question... if I got it wrong I fail, if I got it right I passed. I got it wrong. But it my defense, it was a weird question. Like, how far do your lights shine when on low beam and you're at a stop sign? Or maybe it was you're going uphill, and you need to park on the hill, what way do you turn your wheels? I didn't (still don't) know the answer to either of those lol. I sure hope the officer doesn't ask me any questions when I'm driving. lol. So sometime this week I guess I'm calling up the place and scheduling my test. yikes.

...they're back....

the titles, that is. Somehow the title coding got deleted from my template, even though I *know* I had it in there before. grr. But it doesn't matter, cause they're back now :) And I've decided I'm not going to go back and put titles on each blog that I did, that would take too long. With the exception of yesterday's blog, because I already had that in there. And now I'm off to get ready for the dentist :)

...so...notice any changes? haha...

Ok so yea I changed things around. But not really. The only new additions are the chatterbox and the titles. This template I already used, but I can't find one I want to use right now, and I'm too lazy to look around more. lol. So here you go. This simple one, for the time being at least.

I've a dentist appointment tomorrow :) I'm looking forward to it actually, there's a few problems with my plate that I'd like to discuss and hopefully he can fix them. So cross your fingers for me please.

My mom's been complaining about how I'm always on instant messenger and not doing things I should be doing such as thinking of what I'd like to take with to Arizona. So, while on instant messenger the one day, I (with some help from wobbie :) made a list of all the things I need to pack for my AZ trip. This is what I have so far:

Books

pool towel

pillow- because I don't know how many my grandma has, and because i like mine

camera and TONS of film

roscoe's address so I can send her a postcard :)

gum for plane ride- so my ears don't pop/explode

clothes- I have them listed individually on my handwritten list, but I don't feel like putting them all on here

nighties

toothbrush/paste

hairbrush

razors (don't want hairy legs in AZ! Lol)

That's all I have so far. It seems as if I should have more, but I don't. So if you can think of anything else I'd possibly need for a little over a week away from home, let me know please? I can take plenty of stuff, my dad bought me a HUGE suitcase after I had already bought my cute little-to-normal sized one, when all I would have really needed was another little-to-normal one. I can use the big one for college too so it's not like it was a waste of money. I can take up to 3 suitcases (I think it was 3, either that or 2) and one carry-on. So, I can take as much stuff as I want, that's why I decided to take my pillow. I love my pillow, and usually when I go to other people's houses they don't have any pillows that are perfect like mine. I mean, I use them anyway, but mine is just better. for me. lol.

oh, and may, I tried to post this in my comments earlier but it didn't go through, and then looking later I couldn't find the comment where you asked, so I'm giving up and posting it here instead :) Thanks for telling me about that free ad free site, but I think I'll just stick with blogspot for now. As much of a pain in the butt as blogspot is sometimes, I'd have to learn how to do FTP and all that stuff, and time is extremely limited this month. And next month it'll be even busier... so for the next 2 months at least I'm sticking with blogspot. Thanks though, it does sound cool. :)

I read somewhere, on some blog, that you can type with a bunch of typos as long as the first letter and the last letter are correct. Tihs wulod be an eaxmlpe. I thought it was interesting and I'd like to post the link on the one yahoo group I'm on, but I can't find it anymore. So, if you happen to know either the blog (or any blog) of where that was posted with a link, or even the link to the article itself, please let me know :)

I don't know about the archives things, if you can really make them go away or not. So I'll just keep them for now. And as for the titles, I'll think about figuring that out for my next template. No, not my next template. Well, it depends if I find a new template or not. I have one for when I go on my trip to AZ, but I might put another template up before that one. So, I'll think about putting the titles in my template after I go to arizona. Yes, that's what I meant to say. I'm tired. lol

I've been out all day. We were going to my grandparents early this morning, but we kept getting distracted and didn't leave until about 11:30/12noon. Then on our way to my dad's work (to switch cars) we saw that our one friend and his friend were sitting in front of a McDonalds on the lawn-- and next to them was a badly wrecked car. Turns out that he was going straight on the highway when this 79 year old lady turned to cross his section of the highway even though she didn't have a green arrow to turn or anything, she says she didn't see him coming, and he hit her car, bounced off of it, hit the curb, where witnesses tell him his car flew 20 feet up in the air before bouncing off of a street light pole, and bouncing into a ditch in front of Mcdonalds. Neither him or his friend were badly hurt, thank god. They probably both have concussions though, they were a little spacey. Oh and his friend has a bit of a smashed face, and had a broken nose, but it was broke before the crash and he said it feels better he can breathe now, so we're thinking that the crash snapped it back into the right place.

And then after making sure they were alright, had a ride, let them use my parents cell phone, etc. we went to my grandparents. Had fun talking to them, but now I'm tired. And there's a movie on I want to watch so I'm going to go chill for awhile. It's been an exahusting day.

as per request my blog now shows 15 days of posts. I don't want to make it too much. I was even thinking of doing away with my archive links, because mom doesn't like the idea that people can search for certain things and find my blog. So, what do you think of getting rid of the archives?

it's my blog's 1st birthday! woohoo! I would post something really profound and amazing about how this year of my blog has changed me, but i'm not in a profound mood so instead you get a big YIPPY SKIPPY!!!!!! MY BLOG IS A YEAR OLD!!! :)

image from here

Ok, so this post will be about credit cards.

I don't use them, and I don't really want to because I've seen the 'evil' side of them where people are thousands of dollars in debt. And if someone's offering you 'free money' then chances are there's a catch you didn't notice and you'll only get in trouble with it. So I don't use them, and don't intend to.

That being said, I always open my mom's junk mail credit card offers (she lets me). She rarely ever even opens them, even when they say the exciting phrase "choose from 8 great designs!" I love seeing the different kinds you could get. I'm partial to either black (my favorite color, but I've yet to see an almost all black credit card) or see through blue. But then again, there's the Silver Platinum one. Or Gold. Either color makes you instantly think that person has $$$ because they got that card. So which one is best? You can fool people into thinking you have money with the Platinum/gold card, even though you may only have a $300 limit, or you can go for a color you actually like. I think which color I would pick would depend on where I am in life. Like, say they let you get a credit card at 17 (which I think they do, as long as you have parental permission?), well then I'd get the one I'd like-- the blue one. Because I'm still in high school and don't have to portray that I have money. But when I'm a big fancy lawyer, shouldn't I have the platinum/gold one so when I take my clients out for lunches they'll be impressed? Or maybe they'll be impressed more with my individuality by having a non-standard see-through blue? See, picking out a credit card is confusing. One more reason I'm not going to get one. lol.

tada!!!!! here it is. Cheerful, isn't it? I love it :) It's kind of great having such a cheery template, since when I look out my window now it's all raining and dreary. :( But I have my template, with my favorite flower, and I'm happy. Thanks Satin-Kisses!!!

Are you ready?

Another new template change is coming!! And I am soooo excited about it!!!! It's that daffodil one that I've been dreaming about. Lol. Sounds silly but I really love this template. Krissy from Satin Kisses did an amazing job!!! I am very very happy. In case you couldn't tell ;)

It was a sad day today though, with Johnny Cash and John Ritter both dying. I just realized they were both named John. That's a weird coincidence. Sad though.

Oh yea, my sister hoover has a new template for her blog. The template is one of May's and she really likes it, so thanks may. :) Maybe it'll make hoover blog more. hahaha. Anyway she said she'd feel more encouraged to blog if she had people visiting. So if you have the free time and feel like it, you should visit her blog. And leave a comment/tag cause otherwise she'll have no idea you're there cause she took away the site meter because it depressed her. lol.

Oh yea, I wanted to ask, what does everyone else's blogger posting window look like? Hoover was posting on hers and I noticed it's completely different from mine. Mine has a box where you type your message, and below that it has your old postings and a calendar. Hers had just a box where you type a message and a button to 'preview this post' and then the setting/posts/template tabs were completely different from this. What does yours look like? Did I just miss the update somehow?

hmm nothing else to report now. Well, I have a head ache and my nose is stuffed (I pronounce it stufd cause of my nose lol) and I sneezed a record 8 times today, but you didn't really need to know that. lol.

new template. simple. i made the header image :) (aren't i talented? lol)

And Ruger Roscoe!!!!! now has a blog, and since she's pretty cool her blog is bound to be, right? She already has a much better first post than I did. lol. So be sure to go visit!

Oh yea, that reminds me. My blog's birthday is soon. September 15th to be exact. So be sure to wish it a happy 1st birthday, or...well, you're mean and it'll make my blog sad. :p

So, for a quick recap of what I did today... cleaned. And cleaned.

I cleaned the living room, and the kitchen. I swept the kitchen floor (with a broom) and then I vaccumed the living room and office rugs. The office rug was annoying because my dad got sawdust all over it, and it got like ground into the rug. So I had to really sweep that. grr. And I folded about 9 loads of wash (not exaggerating), and I washed 4 shirts by hand... (things I didn't want to go in the wash machine but probably could have). Oh, and I cleaned my room. It was a disaster area. A real toxic dump site. Dirty (and clean) wash everywhere, mixed with books. So I piled all my books onto my bed, and put all my (and my sister's) wash in the wash machine (took 4 loads lol). And I cleaned out the refridgerator (yuck!!!)

And now I have to get this down while I still have the thoughts in my head. Cause otherwise I'll lose track of what I was saying and this will just come out all jumbled. although knowing me, it's going to be jumbled anyway. And now, I open OpenOffice because this subject deserves proper capitalization. :p

And a big big big thanks to Ruger Roscoe for the topic idea!! :)


As I'm sure you all know, it's the 2nd anniversary of the World Trade Center collapsing. I didn't turn on any of the programs that were on tv for remembering the tragedy. September 11th is something I try to forget happened. I have to try to forget it happened in order not to live in fear. And in order to not cry. For everyone. I think I really grew up on Sept. 11th. I finally realized that my dad was right all those years. He always said that I will see a war in my lifetime. That he hopes to God he's wrong, but he knows he won't be because too many people hate the U.S.

I was talking to someone in a chatroom the other day and they said “everyone in the US is horrible people.” And I just said 'oh, really? I try not to make generalizations like that because I know that what you hear about on television or in magazines isn't a portrayal of everyone in a country. We're not all shallow, greedy people. There are good people in the U.S., you just don't hear about them as often as you hear about the bad.” And I believe that, I really do. As much as I don't like a lot of the things I hear other countries do, I never hate a whole country. I try not to hate, period. Cause what's hating going to get you? Bitter. Nobody ever feels better for hating someone/something. It eats at you.

Today is the 2 year anniversary of when my school opened. Lol. I guess a school that was scheduled to open on a day that was a national tragedy is almost bound to fail, isn't it? (and no we didn't have school on sept. 11th, once the towers fell our school opening was postponed)

Today also marks the 2 years we've been chasing after Osama and his goonies. Isn't it disgusting how we supposedly have all this technology and yet we can't find one guy? I never thought of people in the Middle East as being as loaded with technology as they apparently are. I mean, when I used to think of the Middle East I thought of desert and sand and a bunch of people in turbans (i know, horrible isn't it? Aladdin influence there I think). I never thought of there being people with money and power in the middle east. And what a rude wake up call I had.

Well, I could probably think of more to say on this, but I'm not sure how all that came across so as it is, and it's 11:15pm so I only have 45 more minutes to post it otherwise I'll have to edit everything to say “yesterday was the 2nd anniversary” lol.