I Hope That I Don’t Fall In Love
Well I hope that I don’t fall in love with you
‘Cause falling in love just makes me blue
I think this song is just so beautiful. And not that there's a particular person I'm talking about, but this just fits my mood lately. I want no part of love. Not now, probably not ever. It just hurts too much. Love is whats making my mom stay with my dad. Love is what is making people put up with horribly destructive ways. Love is what makes my friends all go crazy. And it puts people in situations that, if they weren't experiencing this emotion, even they would see as crazy. As that song goes, love hurts.
Today my mom was saying "Just stay away from guys. I know you want love, but it's not worth it" That surprised me. I totally didn't expect her to say that she knows I want love, because I'm always saying how much of a pain it has to be. And sure, she laughed afterwards to show that she was partly kidding, but she also partly wasn't. Love makes you go through so much. And I guess if you love this person you'll go through the things willingly to have that love. But is life so bad without it? I guess it has to be, if so many people want love so bad.
Can we help falling in love? I'd like to think so, but the more I explore it, the more I doubt that we can. As that song goes, he doesn't want to fall in love with her... and one of the last lines is "I think that I just fell in love with you." So that'd mean no, we can't control it.
I hate that it can't be controlled. I'm not even in love, and I'm already miserable just thinking about it.
(Perhaps this post was inspired by the thought of going back to college this Sunday, a place that is more than 75% girls (the majority of whom fall in and out of love at the drop of a hat)...)
4 comments:
Love can be the greatest thing too! I know it's the best thing in my life and I hope you'll find it someday, without the drama. You're right, you can't controle love. But to see it making you happy and to see it work without having to controle it is the best thing.
JaG @ work
mmm... I've never heard that version of the song, but I've loved the Tom Waits version for a while.
I think maybe the biggest problem with love is that people expect it to solve everything instantly, and so nobody wants to compromise or put effort into making it work.
But me? I'm staying far away. hahah.
Ya know, Heather, I was worrying about something entirely different the other day, when my Ma said something that I think will help you too. I was trying to figure out if I should plan to rebuild the truck I have or but a new one. My mom said, bascially, not to worry about it until I had the time, money, and abilty to not only make my choice but follow through with it. Heather, don't worry about it until the time is right, when it's unadvoidible.
;)
RJ
Did you say 75% percent girls I want to go to your school lol
My school is 75% guys do you want to trade?
And I tried to perfect the not falling in love thing over the past 5 years the only way to really do it that I could figure out was too (Don't Try This At Home) drink and do a lot of drugs.
Even then I still fell in love once so it didn't stop it completely. I still haven't drank it forces more emotions to surface but I don't have sever depression and anxiety anymore.
I'm going to finish my school work I'll be back :-)
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